~give me joy in my heart keep me sharing~helloooooo....back back back.i can sense u ppl missing me.so i just HAD to blog.ahah!k,enuf of self-indulgence. everyting has been good so far. sort of. haha! but first, i haf da sudden need to kick a certain sumone in my family right smack in da head for god noes wat he did resuting in all my documents being deleted. fuckernabe u. now,i haf to be a no life poopbag n redo ALL my hardwerk(methodoly,lit essay,karagan n MANY MORE)not dat i dun haf enuf werk already.~if you dont know me by now,you will never never never know me~
next,last thursday,i had a farewell party for da senior cheerleaders.so gona miss dem.got fried in da sun!but shall untan myself since im off pe for sum time due to my worn out left kneen right ligament n sprained back.(thnx to dose hu cared=))we gave dem pretty g-strings as gdbye gifts n guess wat.dey gave us pretty cheer panties!!haha!it was sad thouhg,cuz i came to noe my dear wilson is leaving.dun u agree shelly?im missing him already.he bought me a pretty blue headband wich i wi b wearing soon!thanks sweethart=) den dat nite,i was suppose to go fetch my niece hu cudnt make it in da end. BUT, eyecandy invited me to dinner wif his frens(hu later on left us both). he surprised me by not shying away. good for him. entertaining fella he. haha! has any one of u had a guy ASK u for PERMISSION to leave to go get sumtin? *"MAY I go n buy bread for my mum awhile?MAY I pls?"* I DID!I DID!haha!gentleman kebabom! had a pleasant time. guess he shys away in skul cuz lotsa ppl noe n tease us. same goes for me. hee!=)~now i know i can shine the light to find my way back home~
nontheless,shall take tings ultra super slow. i m just too scared to open my heart up again due to sum unforseen circumstances. speaking of which. i m just too busy, too happy n too tired to haf to entertain shits lyk dis. go believe wat u wana believe. i dun gif two fucks animore. u TINK u noe stuffs,but u noe shits. dun u agree wif me dear vicky n one more guy whom i shall not name cuz i dowan dem to go attack him?its ok, as long as da super important ppl hu NOE ME WELL ENOUGH noes,im fine. so here i am,numb to u. so be happy now. im gone. *stop telling ppl hu noe me dat u wana tok to me. u tink u noe everyting wen u dun. u tink ur so big. pls,u dono how silly n WEAK u luk wen all u can do is shoot crude remarks,endless threats,overused vulgarities n lame insults. im sick of tolerating dis bullshit. until u haf sumtin more den dat to say, den wil i consider. cuz rite now, i rili dun haf time for dis. dun do to oders wat u dowan done to u. dun demand respect,earn it. wen ppl do shit to u,instead of gettin mad,go reflect. u wil realise dat u did da same shit to sum1 else b4. it is kolled "retribution".if u tink im afraid of u. tink again."*~all the things that we've been through,you should understand me ike i understand u~
moving on wif life. i had a cheerleading workshop wif MAGNUM FORCE recently. da boys der r not oni SUPER STRONG. dey r oso super gentlemanly. WE LIKE.heehee. i loved flying wif dem.=)oh yes. horsehair n i aspire to to be TUMBLERS. WE WILL FULFIL DAT DREAM! right horsehair? i like flying,but tumbling. is a dream.~memories killed~
im missing my kristel n danial so bad. just so so so so bad, i cant describe dis sumwat emptiness. haiz. im so sori for neglecting my sunshine boys. ever so concerned syahir. haiz. i miss u all so. dis shall b it den. n im missing my hero's company,more den wat i show and anione noes.oh yes. lemme state how bloody stupid sum guys can b. dey FLIRT wif one of ur closest frens. HOW BODOH CAN DEY GET?!to actuali tink we wun find out. please. plain pathetic. oh well, dats da ife dey choose to lead,so be it.kip smiling all.*hugs big big,love many many,sunshine plenty plenty*=)
~at first i was afraid i was petrified~
~kept thinking i could never live without you by my side~
~but then i spent so many nights thinking how you did me wrong~
~and i grew strong,and i learnt how to carry on~
give me oil in my lamp keep me burning.
to smile til its time.staying hopeful.
foxy mama,out.