me,syahmi n my no 1 gurlfren,my lifeguard,kristel heather joseph.
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there you'll be~today the kids are over at my place..woohoo!!its been a long time since i actuali spent time wif dem..gosh i miss dem shitloads...amira,insyira,nadrah,girl-girl(dun ask) n da newest member of our posse...MIRZA!!!!HES A
BOY!!!!heehee..deir new baby brother..nadrah dear has to stop punching da boys head..violent child she is..haha..
i started my morning wif nadrahs
BUTT ON MY FACE!wat a wake up kol..n it was lyk sae 12 sumtin..had a nice long big hug frm dem n tears on my part...den i took a shower..n i came back to a room dat looked lyk a tsunami struck it.da kids turned it inside out,upside down..den we went downstairs to da kitchen where i made dem peanut butter n jelly sandwiches..beautiful!heehee..cuz I made em..heehee..first on da impromp to programme i made for dem was FINGER PAINTING!!heehee..insyira darling made a portrait of all of us..amira doll made a pic of me which said
"best aunty"(so swweeeeet)...nadrah dear made a failed attempt to draw a horse...it looked more lyk a cactus..hahah..n girl-girl...she made a pic of all of us...but wif me separated frm da rest....was rili trying my best to not cry..i guess dis is deir way of telling me dat i haf been neglecting dem..
~Did you know that those who appear to be very strong in heart, are real weak and most susceptible? Did you know that those who spend their time protecting others are the ones that really need someone to protect them?~ den we had a game of hide-n-seek..bein da big gundu bum i was...i forgot abt my fatness n decided to bodohly hide in da laundry basket..how stupid i was to not realise dat it was inevitable to get my big hippo ass stuck in der...yeah yeah yeah...larf all u wan..da kids were literally rolling on da floor...thnx for leaving me in der!sumhow wif gods grace,SUNDENLY i managed to unstuck my ass..wateva da werd is..yet dey were stil larfing...so meeeeaaan.(shellyrah says,"u meaaaaaner")heehee.den after dat we made paperboats..i brought dem a pail filled wif water..n sumhow we derived so much pleasure frm seeing paper boats float...haha..den...wif water cums lotsa uncalled for fun as we diverted to sum "splashing-of-water" in da bathroom...it stopped wen dey were satisfied wif da extent i was wet...kids...haha..then i fed dem deir luch..had sum lovely mee soto cooked by my mom..scrumpdiliumtious i tell u..
den i read dem a bed time story...n now dey r asleep..so im on da net..n baking sum pretty brownies to surprise dem wen dey wake up...heehee..while watchin dem sleep..i juz realised dat dey r one of my few living sources of happiness..n i haf reali been neglecting dem...i tink its abt time i went back to da KK hosp ward for da dying kids.......heh...gif dem happiness..u noe...yeah..i miss dem..seeing deir last few smiles...how wud u feel to haf a 5 yr old girl say to u,"hope to see u soon.im sori if u cum back n im not here"..it makes me wunder...wen isit gona b my turn..heh..
*I'm waitin in the dark.I thought that you'd be here by now
* Speaking of God, i m finding myself rili missing yan..i need him ah..he was one person hu wud neva make me feel ignored or sumtin of second place no matter how bz he was..i nid him..n i miss him now more den ever..da one person hu wud neva make me feel anitin less den happy..but nonetheless,i haf to face reality..i can neva see him..n i can neva haf him...ders no use looking back oh wondering..
~there's no love,lyk ur love n no other can give more love~(sumone pls prove me wrong)well, i hear one of da kids crying now..duty calls..
~Isn't anyone tryin to find me?~ ~Won't somebody come take me home~ (wont u take me by the hand take me somewhere new?)keep smiling everyone!!cuz i am.=)
foxy mama, out.
