~dun tell me its not worth fighting for,cant tell me its not worth dying for~tinkin back on wat had juz happened a few days back (may 27th-29th, sat-mon)...im quite amazed on wat all that i haf done..din tink dat i wud actuali go dat far for dat
one person..to da extent of my own life..brief summary..da story begins with me,azli,daniel,moran n azwan..azwan wanted to bring us to AMK park to haf a gd time..it was 10 at nite..well,shit happens n i made a
"friend"(with pretty greenish-grey eyes)..dis
"friend" of mine wanted to take care of me..(trust me,its not in a good way)
she knew all dat was in my heart..EVERYTHING..
she din noe how to shut up...so
she made da contents of my hart known..to an extent,i feel lyk i was stripped of my privacy..now everyone noes...
but as i guessed....wat difference does it make?hah..
den
she wanted
him...
~everybody knows,dat i was such a fool to ever let go of u.Baby i was wrong, I noe I said we'd be better off alone~~slowly walking away~no way in hell was dat gona happen....over my dead body..i mean that literally...........($400 ring.....)*we r both
blind*
da decision i made,da pain i endured n da hell i went through...only
God knows.
she showed me wat was in da hearts of dose dearest to me, how I wish i din noe any of it.not
his,not
imans,not my mums,not anione.
*random thought*-i know its a lesson.i'll change,how bout them?-try piecing da picture on ur own yeah...it hurts to tink abt it...wateva it is...its over now...
he will always b safe....heh..n life goes back to how it was once before.
well ANIWAY..
hapi hapi time..im a hapi hapi gurl!!heehee!!beautiful!heehee..its a friday n yeah..end of da week..dun tink i haf plans for da weekend..gona rest i guess..it'l juz b me n my oh so comfy airbed..wat a life..heehee..oh!oh!oh!im lyk sooooo gona go back for band next week..either mon or tue!!gosh i miss werkin it out on da instruments...time to gif my gurls a pre-SYF pep tok..dey wan azli to cum along..haha...up to him...oso can..
Oh dear...hold up bebeh's!!i wud lyk to take dis oppurtunity to thank da following ppl :
Daniel - thank u for neva doubting me thru out da whole ordeal..thank u for sticking by me wen i felt everyone was gona leave me to pull thru alone. thank u for carrying my fat hippo ass.(sori for da extra weight)
Moran - thank u for seeking help frm ur grandfather. for giving me dat wake up kol tho extremely harsh at da 11th floor. thank u for havin da courage to tok to her.
Kristel - Thank u for staying by my side,for being the one true gurlfren u r.
Azwan - thank u for da cab fare. and for helping carry my fat hippo ass.(sori abt dat)
Irsyad - thank u for ur all ur advice n kind help.sori u missed ur test dat dae.heh.im not afraid of u nimore bebeh!!heehee
My mother - thank u for being der not telling papa.
My sister - thank u for sitting der by me(n on me)..n for kolin me exorcist.heh.
Minah Rep n Yanni laser - thank u for offering ur help n hearing me out.
Iman - thank u for......................................rite.nevermind.
~begging for a second chance?~~wen i think back on these times~Azli - thank u for
keeping me alive without realising it.heh.
i dont rili noe wat u guys saw or heard but im hell sorry for striking fear in ur hearts. I wun blame u if da fear stays.
I understand as much as it hurts.it ends here today...sori for da random chunks of blank space..i seem to haf grown a lyking for da "enter" button.heehee..
~you've been away for far too long~kip smiling everyone
!!!!~smile tho ur hart is aching,u'll get thru if u juz smile~hapi hapi hapi!!!!!!!!!!
*giggles n bounces off*
foxy mama, out.
